It's All In a Day

"What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger."

I am living this. Everyday, I am being tested... pushed to my limits... or at least pushed to what I assumed my limits were but I am quickly shown that all limits can stretched and crossed.

My Job...

My job is tiring. It's frustrating and emotionally draining... and yet, I somehow find a way to come back each day.

I feel like a babysitter or a pshycho-monitor. Better yet, I feel like a puppet at the commands of my students. Used, abused, and disrespected; this is how I feel each and every day I set out to leave. It's not fair; but then again, neither is life. But I do not deserve this... one deniable point I will declare until my lungs lose force and my soul loses its will. I am worth more than this, but I never seem to get it. They want and need more from me than I am currently avaible to give.

Just when I think it cannot get any worse, it does. An just when I think that I cannot feel any lower, I do. At what point does the storm die down? When do I get an opportunity to experience smooth sailing? When do I have "ta-ha" moments because right now, it's nothing but turbulence and struggles.

I am at a point of truly hating what I do. Kids plotting against me, total defiance and disrespect, hormones, uncontrolled tempers, etc. It's too much to handle. In fact, it's more than too much for someone my age. I am young; life is supposed to be freeing, cultivating, nurturing, meaningful...

Sometimes I really want to check some of these students... read them, write them, and shrink them back down to size. But I can't because I am a professional. I'm the adult. I'm the teacher.. Well, screw this!!! I'M FED UP!!!

I'm tired of being ignored, disrespected, flunkied, degraded... I'm tired of being an adult in a teenage environnment... Most importantly, I'm tried of being tired... Middle Schoolers Suck!!!

Sincerely Signed,

Frustrated and Annoyed