I Will Never Understand...

I will never understand the way life moves, works, or functions. I am constantly confused... constantly trying to make meaning out of the experiences I am enduring... yet I will not complain.

Life is what it is; but is it wrong for me to try to understand it?

I guess I can blame my curiosity on the fact that I am an eternal learner, in all of its essence. I am determined, disciplined, dedicated, and eager to absorb new knowledge. However, at the same time, I am vulnerable, imperfect, and unsure. The oxymorons of life seem simple; but things are never as they seem. Complex simplicities exist just as simple complexities surface.

I will never understand the world... I may never make meaning out of my life... but is it wrong to try? Is it wrong to want knowledge... is it wrong to never want perfection, just something close to it... is it wrong to acknowledge your many flaws and accept them for what they are? This doesn't admit that you are accepting failure, it just means that you are in touch with self and the many confusions of life. Nevertheless, I will never understand...

Life Lesson

The hardest thing to ever do in life is to stand and be alone; but once you master this, your life takes on new meaning and everything else becomes possible...

Everyday, I am presented with two choices: falter or survive. I'm no quitter, but like all things in life, I sometimes get weak. And I'm no basket-case, but like all people, I too get emotional. When presented with struggles, I triumph. When I feel like I have been pushed to my limit, I exceedingly surpass the unfathomable. Inevitably, I am a survivor. Undoubtedly, I am an individual. I am walking on a new course of life, physically alone; but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, I am surrounded by love!!!

Letter of Resignation

Camden, NJ
Planet Earth

March 3, 2006

To: Life
Natural and Super Natural Realms of Existence

Effective as of the date of this letter, I Chante' Chambers resign my position as free spirited adult in a confining world.


Sincerely,
Chante' Chambers



CC: To Whom It May Concern

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If only it could be this easy... if only I could just decide that today wasn't the best day or this week hasn't been the greatest and then submit a one-sentence letter to end the chaos... Oh how insanely perfect life would be. However, nothing is perfect and no matter how hard I pray, a letter could never end the unpredictibility and spontaneity of life. Therefore, I must do what I can control. I had to submit my letter of resignantion; I can no longer be a free-spirited adult in this confining, monotonous, and limiting world. Somehow free-spirit and adult is a oxymoron and idealistic, utopian concept... it is just not seeming to fit.

So bitterly, I must serve the papers... goodbye free-spirit; Hello, responsible, confined, stressed, on the grind, and sadly lost adult.